Loosely.

I took this photo two years ago, a week before I was laid off at my old job.

This also speaks to this particular season of life I find myself in, having to hold things very loosely.  Ready to receive and ready to let go.  Whatever is given is good and whatever is lost needed to be laid aside.  Surprise and provision will come at the right time.  Until then, I wait gratefully with open hands.

I had no clue how full my hands would be after I posted that. Started my own business; moved to Seattle from Phoenix to work at The City; met and married my husband, Cole; Cole starting music composition school at Cornish; starting college ministry; trying to move so we could open a home for art students…

And now I come back to open hands again, letting go of the best two years I’ve had, filled with great career opportunities and amazing relationships. The road has ended for me at The City. It’s a very painful goodbye to a project that has been forged with some of the most incredible people I have ever known, people who have challenged both my heart and my hands in ways I will forever be grateful. It’s right to grieve the ending of this time. I’m reminded of this quote:

We begin to see that the completion of an important project has every right to be dignified by a natural grieving process. Something that required the best of you has ended. You will miss it. — Anne Wilson Schaef

It’s an uneasy road to travel as a graphic designer. Especially one who’s putting her husband through school and trying to make a home to adopt college students. Thankfully, as a friend reminded me today, that it’s easy for God to take care of us. As sorrowful as today is, I know I can rest assured that whatever is next is good. He gives good gifts in good time. Heck, if these have been the best two years, I can’t even begin to imagine the years that I’ll be able to describe like that! Cole & I haven’t even completed our first year of marriage and we’ve got a huge laundry list of craziness we’ve experienced together. I’m so thankful that I get to do life with my studly husband. Pretty sure he’s singlehandedly preventing me from breaking out in hives right now. But I digress.

I’ll be working on my portfolio and launching a website over the weekend—maybe you’ll be a part of the next step?

Until then, I’ll continue to hold things loosely.